Don’t worry I won’t use the oblivious: “that one time I found out my dad died” that would just be boring ;)
(Please note, for this and every post yet to come: I have a twisted kind of humor, especially concerning anything related to the death of my dad. My mom thinks it’s a copying mechanism but I’m pretty sure it’s just part of my warped personalty….♥
Why, oh why did I decide to graduate in chemistry!!?
And why, oh why didn’t I pay closer attention during the first year!? I’m so angry at 11th grade Cora right now!!!
Also I have math tutoring tomorrow…. AGAIN! Why? Because I flunked the written math exam. Why? Because apparently studying 10 hours a day for two weeks isn’t enough, I’m stupid and Austrian’s new testing system SUCKS!♥
It finally happened.
I no longer drift around the edges wondering what’s it like to be inside.
Now I finally belong.
Know what I’m talking about?
‘Course you don’t.
Let me clarify.
I had my first graduation exam nightmare. (Dun, dun, duuuun)
For weeks all anyone has been talking about are their scary dreams and how they can’t sleep and how nervous they are and blah blah blah.♥
So these last few weeks have been kind of very much not fun (understatement of the year) and even though every day makes me feel like a slug going up hill, I plow on restlessly, because I have to. There’s no other option. Therefore in the spirit of positive reinforcement I’ve made a list of all the things I have accomplished over the last few days (small and pathetic as they may be) without Dad’s help.♥
Today should be the perfect day.
It’s my birthday, the sun is shining, the birds are chirping and the trees carry tiny green blossoms.
Sure, it early in the morning.
Sure, I have to go to school and present my graduation essay to panel of serious looking people.
Sure, I’m nervous like never before.♥
Sunlight streamed through the window.
Illuminating the blue patch of blankets where she lay.
She shifted her arms so she could lie more comfortably on his legs.
Her Daddy’s legs.
Legs that hadn’t moved since her arrival. Legs that would never move again.
That was all it took to change her life forever.♥
A wall of people everywhere she looked.
She felt a hand on her exposed shoulder. She turned. Nicole! She fell around the girl’s neck, glad she wasn’t alone.
She was shy. Nicole was not.
The blonde girl pulled her toward the dance floor. They started to dance.♥
Ladies and Gentlemen,
boys and girls.
Things have got to change.
I can’t just go dissapearing on y’all for a week and a half and pretend like nothing is wrong!
It’s bad for me, my writing and my blog. I’ve noticed I turn into a sniffling, self-pitting, son of a– well let’s just say I can be very unpleasant whenever I go too long without picking up a pen and stringing together some fancy words.♥
Sorry for the 24ish hours delay. My wordpress schedule thingy had a bad day and forgot to upload my Sunday post. But it’s ok. We’re ok. All is forgiven. *rainbow emoji*
Anyways speaking of bad days remember the serious dump of a slump I was in last week? Well even though I can’t say it’s completely gone (there still are days when all I want to do is curl up in bed and
die sleep), it’s definitely getting better.♥